It is such a joy to be able to look back on things I had written just over a year ago - all the hopes, dreams, and fears - and to see how God gloriously answers our prayers and speaks to our hearts. My last post on this blog, written just after we found we were expecting our first child, speaks totally into exactly what the last year and a half of my life has become.
First things first, that sweet baby we were expecting was a little GIRL! Her name is Loyce Kelly, and she just turned 10 months old last week. She came into the world two weeks past her due date, but in her own time. She had a fiery spirit, an inquisitive mind, and has brought more joy to Adam and I than I ever knew this world had to offer. Along with that, we made the decision that the best thing for our girl and our family was for me to stay at home. Funny, how even with working before when I posted about how different my life had become than what I expected, it has changed even more so since then!
Being a stay-at-home mom (with some babysitting of my good friends little boy and some geometry tutoring mixed in there) is a job I NEVER thought I wanted to have! I thought it would be so boring, such a wast. However, as so many of us learn when a little person comes along, I have never been busier in my life. Hands down the BEST job I have even had. Occasionally (ok, lets be honest, a lot of the time) I feel like I am going to go crazy spending my day wiping noses, changing diapers, making bottles, and pushing buttons so little toys can play the same song on what feels like eternal repeat, I have never been more satisfied. My soul is so happy when I think of all the moms who are at work, wishing they could be home. I have serious respect for working moms, because it is so much work to mold a tiny heart, it is so incredible to me that anyone has any energy for more!
In my last post I had written about how I longed to become a more loving, respectful wife. I feel like I have grown a lot in that area of the past year (of course I still have a looong way to go, but who doesnt?) and Adam and I are so happy in our marriage. We recently went to a marriage class through our church, which followed a book called "Sacred Marriage", written by Gary Thomas. The whole premise of the class is what I was barely beginning to understand last year, that our marriages are not designed by God to bring us happiness (though that is certainly and added benefit of sharing your life with someone), but rather to make us more holy. He talked about how our marriages shine a bright light on the darkness in our hearts and our souls, and help us grow to love more like Christ, to be closer to our Lord, and to really give of ourselves in the way the Father calls us to. SUCH a good class.
I think I have probably rambled enough for the time being, it feels good to put words down on virtual paper again. I make no promises to be a regular poster (remember those snotty noses and diapers?), but I do hope to at least occasionally come up with something worthy of writing, that hopefully speaks to someone else out there. :)
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